A Thing that My Ex's Need to Know

It's so hard if your enemy is yourself per se. I am pretending that I've moved on but the truth is she is still within my system.

When I love it's truly, madly and deeply - tested and proven, guaranteed true and correct. Why does true love hurts? Why is it that the one who loves most suffers the most? Do you really need to give everything for the one you love yet?

I hate love. I really do. I don't want to be in love anymore.

What will I do? I'm done with the first few steps. I already accepted the fact that we can no longer be together. She can't be mine, she'll never have me either. I have cried in grief day an night. I have suffered all the pain and all the torture. Moving on is much harder than I thought. Indeed it's the most difficult stage.

For the ones who only love a little or did not at all the process takes overnight. The deeper the love you felt the harder and longer it gets to go through. However, one thing is sure: If you love someone take it as a blessing for only a few really feel it. Being in love is better that being loved.

I Could Have Been to UP

If I can turn back the time, I could have entered UP campus. If there's something that I regret in my life it will be the time when I passed UPCAT but failed to process my papers with UP because I lack support both moral and financial. I know in my heart that I deserve UP but I am a victim of time and unforeseen occurence. If I can turn back the time I could have pursued my dreams and made my family proud. I can't help but think that a lot of possibities could have opened for me if I pursued myself to UP. I am a victim, a loser.

A Special Entry For This Day

It has been a while. I promised I'll never post an entry about her but I still can't forget her. I'm trying to move on but I need to admit the fact that I still think about her. It's hard to forget someone if that one has been part of your life for a while. The brain has been placed on top of the body to control other parts, including the heart. So, I know I can make it. I just need time. Time heals even the deepest wound. *sigh*

Y Tu Mama Tambien

You've been so kind from the start. You're one of the most wonderful mother-in-laws possible. I am sorry if I failed your expectations. I regret the things that I could have done proactively to avoid the mess. The feeling of guilt hurts. I don't want to carry this burden all throughout my life. I will treasure all the good memories with you and your daughter. I miss you, and will never forget you Mama.

So, how long did you stay with Dell?

Two years.

Hahahaha!

Grrr!

The Mini-reunion

We were with the gang last night at Kuya Sam's place. Past 2PM we went to Contod [hill] but no one was there. We were told that members were at Duang Niyog [two coconuts] and so we followed. We did not advise about our arrival, we wanted it as a surprise. Members were Darius [my older brother], Kuya Sam, Archie, Marlon, Christoper and me. It was a mini-reunion.

Kuya Sam was amazed on how I configured his mobile phone to connect to the web. We had a great time with the chit chat. Laughter echoed on their house. Joy transpired, apparently. I learned a few things about how things went on without me. I realized how I missed a lot of fun. I don't regret it, though. I don't regret having an affair with 'her' for less than a year. :P

I was laughing to death when I also learned how things happened with the CO's visit at Cabungan last summer.

Unfortunately we had to go home early. More updates coming up.

Goodbye Seems to be the Hardest Word

Saying 'sorry' is easy but not 'goodbye'. It was really a very hard decision to bid farewell with Dell. The company has been my second family. However, change is constant so a big decision must happen.


Yesterday, December 22, was my first day with my new family. I just recently applied last week and eventually got hired. I've been with the industry for years so my new family decided to accelerate my progress. I'll bypass the language part and proceed directly with the product per se - both good and bad. Bad thing is that I'll be transferred to a new team - new colleages. Good thing is that the transition will be a lot faster - more opportunities for me. I am looking forward positively.


Next week will be our annual District Assembly in Pili. It'll be a refreshing experience and will be fun as well. I'm excited to see my old friends!


I'm stucked. I've nowhere else to go. Do I have a choice? Actually I do but I realized that relation is far better than cents. I'll see what I can do here but if things will not work out fine no doubt I'll be back to where I started - in the Metro.

A Revelation

A young man who is so talented, full of dreams and who has a career. He knows himself and his potentials better than others. He is willing to take risk and face challenges of all sort. He has proven himself powerful, even conquers the impossible, eventually he ends successful. True, he's not perfect but still learns from the game. This young man's secret weapon is his brain. This organ was placed on top of the body to control other body parts. He does what his brain dictates, still does what the brain says although it's otherwise what the heart says. It's his main strength. Love once made him fall but resiliency proved him champion at the end of the day. He is intelligent. He is one in a million. He is strong.

A Revelation

A young man who is so talented, full of dreams and who has a career. He knows himself and his potentials better than others. He is willing to take risk and face challenges of all sort. He has proven himself powerful, even conquers the impossible, eventually he ends successful. True, he's not perfect but still learns from the game. This young man's secret weapon is his brain. This organ was placed on top of the body to control other body parts. He does what his brain dictates, still does what the brain says although it's otherwise what the heart says. It's his main strength. Love once made him fall but resiliency proved him champion at the end of the day. He is intelligent. He is one in a million. He is strong.